Impassivity

You cry
and I yearn
to be in your shoes
I try
to learn
the moral thing to do
Blank walls
keep me in a bind
my skin,
it crawls
I tell it never mind.

Whole body shakes
are what it takes
to make me feel
force me to kneel
Hit me to hurt me
slow roast and churn me
seal the deal
I want something real.

consumption
consumption
whats your function?
im all out of livers
i’ll sell you my soft skin
sweet prick of a needle
heres my four digit pin
oh my ignorance isn’t bliss
it’s ectstasy
i’m living in a true fallacy
my stomache is aching
but I don’t know true hunger
I’m a flee filled dog
wet whistled youngster

“Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want.”

Rosemary Refresher

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Rosemary, a beautifully unique herb is a universal wonder. It is most often used as an essential oil because of Its alluring smell which refreshes and revitalizes.The benefits of using rosemary are endless, some are as follows:

 

1.Increase in cognitive senses

2.Improved memory

3.When consumed, rosemary is a good source of iron, vitamin B6, and calcium.

4. Relieves muscle pain.

5. Reduces redness and irritation. (great for acne)

 

Good news is, it’s as easy as ever to infuse rosemary into your daily products. Below are the steps to creating a DIY rosemary refresher. I have found it useful as a toner, air freshener, and even a hair spritz. (Rosemary has been said to increase hair growth!)

 

What you’ll need:

1. Rosemary extract

2. Vitamin E Oil

3. 3/4 cup water

4. Spray bottle

 

To begin, open the spray bottle and pour in roughly a dime size amount of vitamin E oil. Then, measure your water for 3/4  and add amount to the spray bottle. To finish, put about 3-4 drops of rosemary extract in and shake the bottle well.

 

(These measurements are purely up to the individual.  Play around with it in order to achieve your desired intensity!)

Habitually Predictable.

As much as procrastination has been such a wonderful escape tool, it’s time to hone in my skills and kick that bitch to the curb. Procrastination is essential for someone like me; as someone who always wants to achieve so many things at one time, it’s only natural to want to put it off until later in case I hit overload. 

1. Stop being so complacent. Get shit done and you will reap the benefits.

2. Ever wonder why you’re so stressed and just cannot figure out why? It’s the procrastination! Subconsciously, all those tasks you want to achieve are eating you up inside. Making a list of all the tasks you want to hit each day and STICK TO THEM.

3. When you really think you can’t do it and it would benefit yourself to honestly do it later, DO IT NOW because let’s face it, it won’t get done later.

Admitting 5 Fears

fear

1. Fear of living an unfulfilling life.

2. Fear of not finding someone who I can truly connect with.

3. Fear of not exploring and figuring out everything that makes me who I am and want to be.

4. Fear of acceptance.

5. Fear of losing the one’s I hold so dear.

A Hairy Situation

Note to self:

If you need a reminder to continue to take charge of life and not be a pussy, ALWAYS do something drastic. In your case, doing something crazy and outlandish is a  standard protocol; a jolt or “kick to the balls” if you will.

In my particular case, chopping my hair to an unventured length changed the way I felt about myself physically and mentally. Physically, it gave me the extra push I needed to show myself I could stand out and separate myself from the generic long haired look that every girl I know colors and curls.

Mentally, I desperately needed something that would help me discover how well I could take change, and whether or not I would judge myself too harshly. I let myself be scrubbed red and raw, as we all often do, with the outlandish expectations of beauty. Ones that of course, no woman or man will ever achieve. Making this unexpected and irrational cut put into perspective how I need to let myself succumb to change and stop caring so much how others perceive me.